The Ones Who Stay

We break and we bend
We stretch our skin to be more
To be enough
But it never is
We seek closure behind closed doors
and closed off hearts
We adore you when you ignore us
We always love more , give more
than we get
And oh how quickly
and easily you forget
We stay and we rationalize
We breathe pain and exhale cries
We eat your broken promises for breakfast
Taste your infidelity for dinner
And still can stomach fixing your plate
Yeah the sorrys they come
But they're always too late
They always feel empty
This house feels cold
We laugh like it's funny
But the jokes getting old
The days are getting long
And love is starting to feel
a hell of lot like playing the fool
Because , I mean, if you really love him
Won't you ?
Don't we ?
We break and we bend
We stretch our skin to be more
But what happens when we have nothing left to give,
nothing left to say ?
Do you really wanna know
what it feels like to lose
The Ones Who Stay?

-Nataja Zanelle

Lovers Anonymous: Fourth Meeting

"Hello my name is Nataja Wells and I am a recovering hopeless romantic"

Here I am again. At the cusp of head over heels ; seemingly by myself. But what's new? Falling is my expertise. Getting wrapped up and allowing my mind to call it something it's not.  I am the queen of reading between undrawn lines. Too scared to ask for what I want. Afraid of never being wanted. There's this constant cycle that just won't stop repeating. I fall, then they leave me. I fall way too easily. My heart strings mirror that of puppets' and they just keep on pulling. Is there a cure? A remedy? Something to make me, less me? Silence begets assumption. And I'll always assume the worse. It's my therapy. Underplay , overestimate. I remember now why I don't like being held. I don't to want to want you, your warmth, your arms around me. There's disappointment lurking in the background. The only constant thing in my life. The only thing I know for sure, is that you'll leave. So don't touch me. Again. I don't need that kind of attachment, I'll do that all on my own.

-Taj

30 Day Challenge: Day Six

Day Six: What band or musician is most important to you ?


It didn't take me long to figure this one out; pretty much a no-brainer. Now this artist is not as mainstream so most of you might not know who she is, but I am hoping to soon help her change that. I have the pleasure to personally know an amazing singer and songwriter by the name of Ari Leticia. Right now she is in the process of really getting back into singing and building her fan base. Her voice is truly something you don't hear on radio and honestly what is missing from R&B music. I like to call her a superstar, because she is , just without the fame. She has a way of transporting you when she sings and it's some kind of magical. She is a local artist based right here in Delaware and more than anything I know she deserves for her voice to be heard all over the globe. But more than having a beautiful voice , she has a heart to match. With just enough insecurity to still remain humble, her dedication to her craft is equally matched to what she shows to her friends. And I am honored and blessed to call her friend, to call her my little sister. She's important to me because she's family & because her gift inspires me to be the best version of myself. She'll never have a clue of just how much she inspires me , with her voice; it's magic really. I could write a book on why I love this girl and why she's so awesome , but I'd much rather show you! Take a minute or two out of your time and listen to her music and I guarantee you will just as strongly as I do about her talent. Support a local artist today, they could be one of tomorrow's Top 10 Billboard Artist!




Ari Leticia, I love you girl.

New Single "Love Lost" on Soundcloud :
https://soundcloud.com/ari_leticiamusic/love-lost


Ari Leticia Official Cover of Hotline Bling & Photograph:
https://youtu.be/lCeZmvM_MGM