Late Night Honesty: Draft Four

I am unable to let people go.

You can hurt me and I'll still find a reason to keep you around. I'll make excuses for you and lie to myself just to justify my inability to cut ties. I say I am the girl who leaves before she's left, but really that isn't true. No matter how much I might want it to be because apart of me will still hold on to them. I give of myself , I give freely and without hesitation never stopping to think whether they deserve me. Whether they will stick around long enough to care. (They never do.) I'm just fed up with being the girl who gets the "I'm sorrys", but never the "I'll change." The girl who puts in the effort , but gets nothing in return. The girl who lets things slide for the sake of keeping the peace. I'm tired of the constant disappointment. Tired of the utter disregard for my feelings.

I am unable to let people go.

Even when I know that I should; it hurts like hell.

-Taj

30 Day Challenge : Day 16

Day 16: If the world were to end tomorrow , what would you do with your remaining time on earth?


Okay before I answer this question , I would like for us all to gather hands for a word of prayer.

God , our Father in Heaven & sweet , sweet son of Christ , please allow this question to be purely hypothetical for while our sister Nataja would love to meet you both, she also would like not to die as an unmarried virgin. Please. Amen.

 I would hug and kiss all of the family & friends I could get to, especially those who I am not in good terms with. And let them know that I love them. I would also be 100% sure that they know God and have accepted Jesus as their savior. Then I would makeout with ________ for the rest of my time on this earth. Because if I have to die a virgin , I would prefer to be closer to losing it then not . Haha. That's so horrible, right ? But it's true. Let's pray that I never have to worry about it!